In Jesus' Name

I'm not a religious fanatic, and I don't believe I can save the entire world alone. I honestly don't believe, or intend, to save anyone. I just don't believe I have the power. But, as I finally found time to pray, I felt like maybe I should share it with others. It's personal, but still, maybe it could help someone. I started with a specific purpose, then went into a rant with a sincerity I haven't had in a while. I guess you can say I was writing out loud. Either way, I hope it finds you well.


Dear Lord,

With so much of my time spent not praying, it’s a blessing knowing that someone else picks up my slack and keeps me protected in your name. I know full well that things wouldn’t be nearly as good as they are without, yet I still understand that things can only continue to get better with you. As you know, it’s very hard to find time to myself sometimes with such a hectic schedule, and I also understand that its difficult for me to say that knowing how much harder some people have it. But I believe we all fight our own battles for a reason. Perhaps this test and these trials work on me in the same way someone with an even more hectic schedule works on them. Our thresholds are not the same. So in your eyes, as I like to believe, you are there to help wherever you are needed. Through my struggles, through anyone else’s struggles, you are there despite what things may look like from the outside. That’s my long, drawn-out way of saying thank you for being there for me even when things were only bad because I made them that way. I honestly would like to say prayer for all those who have it worse, in my opinion, than I do. Those with multiple exams on today, those who have full time jobs while remaining full time students, those with children to raise, and those with family troubles. I pray for them all right now. I ask that you be their strength in their times of need and you continue to guide their lives in right ways. I pray for those who have not yet come to the understanding of just how powerful you are, Lord. It took me some time, and I’m still learning just how very, very valuable prayer to you is. I don’t find any problem humbling myself before someone who has my soul interest in mind at all times. You do nothing but provide me with opportunities and blessings that make me better than I was on the days before. I can’t do anything else but love you for that, Lord. For everything that makes me happy here on Earth, I thank you for as well because without you, it too would not be possible. From family, to friends, to good music, to videogames, to cars, to clothes, to those moments where I can just lay down comfortably and rest, I thank you.

I really want to keep my mother in special prayer Lord. I don’t know how she handles some of these things she’s been given in this world, but everyday she wakes ready to handle it all again. I truly wish there was something I could do to ease all her pain and lift her spirits. If I can’t do anything else, I’ll just pray. In my most sincere bid for your help Lord, I pray that you heal my mother. Heal her of whatever may ill her, bless her with the things in life that always seem to evade her. If it is a financial blessing she needs Lord, I ask that you provide that for her. If she needs a new place of residence Lord, I ask that you provide her a way to attain that Lord. If she is need of a new vehicle Lord, I ask that you provide her with that Lord. I ask that you make your presence known in her life right now Lord, so that she may again enjoy life to the fullest. I ask that you remove the weapon formed against her. I ask that you bless her with all things that she needs and wants. I ask that you bless her in a way that neither she nor I could ever understand. I pray that you bring peace into her life and stability to her moods Lord. I believe a blessing for her would be a great blessing for me. I thank you in advance for all the wonderful ways you will enhance her life, right now.

I pray that you make yourself known completely in my life also Lord. I am nothing without you, and there is no direction but the one you point me in Lord. I ask that you bless me in any way you see fit right now Lord. I ask that you give me the understanding of what I can, and what I can’t come to you for Lord. I ask that you enhance my spirit with your essence Lord, and use me where you see fit to enhance the lives of others. Lord, I ask that you take all my situations and change them to however you see fit. I know I could ask you for a lot of things that I may simply want, but I ask that you always meet me at my needs first, and only where you see fit. Even I don’t know what I want as well as you do Lord, but I ask that you listen to the sound of my soul screaming out for you and ease my pain. I pray that you also stabilize my mood and bring peace into my life. I pray that what is broken is presented with a way for it to be fixed. I pray that what is not there that is needed, makes its way into my life. I pray that doors that were once closed, be opened right now in the name of Jesus. I thank you right now for all that you’ve done and what you have yet to do Lord.

Again, I want to pray for those at this university who deal with a greater stress than I do Lord. I couldn’t imagine how they cope with it all, as I barely do a good job of my trials. But, I haven’t given up, and that can only be because of your grace. I pray that these classes act only as speed bumps, and not road blocks on our way to our dreams Lord. I ask that material not known, be known so that our success here at this school continues. I pray for better methods of studying on all of our behalves Lord. I pray for better time management on our part so that we can give adequate attention to areas we need to know. I pray for time to rest, and allow the information to bleed into our long-term memory, to gain a greater understanding of our subjects. I pray that anyone who is putting forth a great effort here be rewarded with his or her heart’s greatest desire. I pray that those who don’t turn to you enough will begin to realize the error in their ways. I pray for the opportunities to talk with you in a greater fashion. I pray for those who point the finger at others in the midst of religious conversations. I pray that each of us realize the best answer by which to live our lives by. I pray for those who feel that others don’t have the right answer, as they judge us for our beliefs. I pray that those of us with our own beliefs no longer retaliate or condemn those who are religious or those who’ve come to call religion their answer for the wrong reasons. I pray for the state of the country in which I live. I pray for the man who leads this country into the future with his voice of change and his hope for a better tomorrow. I pray the safety of those who protect all of which we believe in. I pray that at the end of the world, I’m on the right side of the fence when it comes to who is saved, and who isn’t. I pray my family and few close friends remain safe through the night. I pray they remain safe through the day, and that no form of evil ever comes against any of them. I pray this prayer brings forth the change in which it was intended. I pray this prayer in Jesus’ name, Amen.

So, as I said, I don't believe I can save anyone, but I would like to help wherever I can. This is a personal conversation I had with the Lord, and I've come to Him in my own way. I believe that my writing is from the Lord, so why not give that back to Him. That is our relationship. I give Him what He gives me, but on a much smaller scale. That is only because I'm human, so I must humble myself with that knowledge. I, indeed, hope you enjoyed what I've had to say here. Please excuse any grammatical errors or anything of the sort as I don't reread or edit my prayers. I mean really, would that even make sense? I don't believe so. I believe the way it was written was the way it was supposed to be written. Everyone, be blessed. The blog is not the dead, the dream has not ceased, and the race is not over. So don't be a failure, keep running, and keep praying.

A Golden Prayer

Dear Lord,
Thank you for 21 years on this Earth. Thank you for the people I’ve come to know and love as my family. Thank you for all the great times, all the memories, the safety, security, and blessings you’ve bestowed upon me over my entire lifetime. Thank you for seeing safe passage for me through this world even before I set foot in it. I’ve celebrated my birthday as of this weekend and on today I want to do nothing else but thank you for all you’ve done for me. Thank you for the strength to make it through situations I saw no way out of. Thank you for the endurance to handle all of life’s toughest moments. Thank you for tears shed and unshed, for the happiness seen and the sadness overcome. Thank you for the ability to think things through and the intelligence to understand that doing the same things will not get you different results. Thank you for health, understanding and deliverance. Thank you for my pain threshold; allowing me to make statements for the people I love that will forever be an expression of your influence. Thank you for the good and the bad examples. Thank you for the courage to realize who to go to for help, and when to ask for it. Thank you for providing it and placing those around to provide it. I remember being afraid to grow old, not knowing what could happen tomorrow, or how I’d handle things unforeseen. But I’ve realized that I don’t mind growing old at all as long as the experiences grow greater. This year will be tough, as will each one that follows, but I just pray that you walk with me and guide me toward the ways that offer the least amount of turmoil. Lead me down the path of joyousness and greatness as a smile on my face will inevitable lead to the smiles of many others. I believe right now that life consists of more than what we can sense. But this life and all its imperfections capture just a taste of what is in store for all of us if we just pass the test. So I shall take notes on what you say to me and call for me to do. I pray for the faith of my mother, the strength of my father, the wisdom of my grandmother, the intelligence of my sisters, the character of my brothers, and the spirit of the children; an optimistic outlook on life with the worry or doubt of a society who’s only goal is to hold them back. I encompass each of these attributes and more because you have blessed me with the attitude to strive for it. And for that, though not enough, I thank you. The first moments of being an adult will forever be close to me as I started them off with those I love, whether they were there in person or not. And as of the golden day, 21 on the 21st, I have started my new path in a conversation with you. Lord, these and all other blessings I ask in your son Jesus’ name, Amen.