Happy New Year everyone! I hope you all enjoyed the holidays and they were blessed and filled with good memories. This is my first blog of the new year, and I don't have any direction in particular, so I decided to write out loud. Here goes:
I had a really good time at Watch Night service. It's an annual thing where we go to church and pray in the new year. I remember one year we burned everything we wanted to leave in the previous year. That was great. I burned my report card. I wanted to leave bad grades (and maybe college) in the old year. We didn't do that this year, but we did have a well-organized program. It was put together by the pastor's daughter and my sister, Tamika, who also emceed the event. I thought it would be like the typical service where every clergy member would preach for about 15 minutes, the choir would sing, then we'd have altar prayer. But, this year, the clergy had good messages, we had the introduction of our new Mime Ministry, Victorious Music Ministry headed by my cousin RJ showed up and even my mama walked in early from work to get prayed up. It was great. A part of me wants to join the choir, but the other part remembers that I really can't sing. So, my excuse will be that I have to go back to school. Maybe next year. I got to go see a good friend of mine before service and I made up with my bay, so as to go into the new year with a better attitude. I closed '08 with good feeling (after we prayed, of course) and only hope to go higher in '09.
2008 was a blessing in itself for me. 2007 was a horrible year for me. I went through a lot. A lot of stuff that I didn't think I would make it through, but learned a lot from. A lot of book material came from that year. So when the new year got year, I realized I had made it, barely, but I was there. It was my sigh of relief, it was my new beginning. New love, new outlook, and new attitude. And as for every new year, I look back and see what problems I need to get rid of, and what new direction I can take for my betterment. In 2009, I'm looking forward to taking the good year of 2008 and ride that momentum into success. I want my book published before this year is over! I'm tired of talking about it, I want to get started and tell this story that has been placed on me. All my details haven't been hammered out yet, but I expect a lot of progress because small progress is not an option. Everyone sits and talks about what they should do, or what they could do, and I want to talk about what I've done. I told myself I wanted to write a book and I wrote one And it sold well. And I've paid back some college loans, and I've bought me something to reward myself and I'm working on the second book. My New Year's resolution is to breathe, then believe. That's all I can do. Something heavy comes my way, I just have to take it head on, breathe about it, then believe that it will get better, or something good will come from it. Also, this year, you won't hear me say "I don't have any money." See, that reality will manifest itself, and I don't need that. My thing is, either I do and don't want to give it to you, or I don't, and I'll say I'm working on it. But never will I say, "I don't have . . ." It's, "I'm going to get it" or "I'm working on it." In 2008 I wanted God to make me a better person, in 2009 I will be that better person. No more excuses for me because I've more than enough chances and more than enough opportunities to do things right, where now, I just will. Don't wish me luck, just keep me positive.
The number 8 (2008) represented new beginnings, and the number 9 (2009) symbolizes completions. I began again in 2008 and this year I will complete what I have started. I have big things planned for myself and others this year. Changes for the better because the worse doesn't exist to me. I hope you all can take something I've said and hold on to it. This is a different tone than you're used to from me, but I feel like something needed to be said. Everyone stay blessed, and continue to not be failures!
1 comment:
"Breath an Believe", I like that a lot. You have this balance of optimism and pessimism that I think is pretty vital in todays world. I found that last year I strongly valued the possibilities of life while being somewhat naive to the fact that the possibility of improbable possibilities are very possible. So this year I didn't really have a new years resolution, I decided to just go into this year because like you said, everyone sits and talks about what they want to do or what they could do, and I think that new years resolutions are like the american way of life just like hamburgers. People just do it because it makes them feel like it's what they have to do. In doing so their resolutions are hollow and become irrelevancy's that are unaccomplished. I feel like news resolutions are a gateway to failure because a lot of times it's all talk. So I will go into this year with confidence in the things I set my mind to, and once I say I will do, it will be done. Great blog man. I love it...
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